Will this time of uncertainty ever end? How can I keep Faith in the midst of Chaos?
The onset seemed insidious. Not like the proverbial bolt of lightning from the heavens. Looking back, I can recognise sign posts that all was not as it seemed. I didn’t recognise them as the indicators that life as I knew it was in the process of being realigned.
Not that I believed I was out of alignment. Hmm. Funny how we can be so steadfast, so intent on making what we believe our reality.
All is not lost, and I feel much more has been found, in this process.
My life-long quest has been to serve as a Healer, a Light-Energy Worker. Since being physically reunited with my Spiritual Family, The Emissaries of Divine Light, through contact with Riverdell Spiritual Centre in Gawler SA, I have found my true North. The joy and comfort of homecoming is indescribable. And always, there is more……..
Over the following months events transpired to remove me from a very toxic work environment, and I started to meet and mix with some beautiful and interesting people more in line with my own views and aspirations. I also travelled to Riverdell twice to participate in residential seminars. My world, both Inner and outer, were being shaped and transformed. I welcomed this process with my whole heart and being.
When we become realigned inside, it reflects in all we say and do, and our outer world moves to mirror our inner world. The old must fall away, die, in order for the new to be born, to come fully into being. Much of my ‘old world’ started dying.
My partner un-partnered me. He could not relate to my dedication to my Inner Spirit, my Spiritual Family and my quest to live in my authentic power. While I initially felt bereft, I know now that he has released me in the kindest possible way to further my quest.
I started to review all aspects of my life, with the help of an Intuitive Coach. Yes! I finally realised and accepted that I needed help, and asked for it. I have been so self-sufficient out of necessity and early programming, I had forgotten how to ask for, and receive help.
I have wept tears of joy and relief when I recognised some of the limiting beliefs and patterns that I had embedded into my psyche from a tender age, when I needed those to survive. They no longer serve me. They can ‘die’, to be replaced by the knowledge that I am powerful in my own right, that as a Fragment of Pure Source Energy, I can direct my Life through Love.
I also learned how to release those who have treated me with anything less than Love, or with acts aligned purely to serve their own agendas. Release with Love, with full Blessing, and move forwards with purpose and the knowledge that I am not directed by any other person’s agendas or controls. How liberating!
So, why am I now experiencing my period of chaos?
I am examining my area of ‘work’, wondering why I have struggled to get any lift-off with my healing practice business, physical and internet based. A wise friend offered me such an Insight Jewel – “what if your plans are not on your Path?”
Which has brought me to embark on re-defining what my Purpose for my business truly is, and how it aligns with my Spiritual Purpose.
This has also prompted the decision to downsize my home, and relocate to a more compact home. I have found it so challenging believing that I have had no control over the physical events required in the process. Why has it taken so long for this beautiful home to attract a family to shelter within its peaceful walls? Is it something I have yet still to do? Have I paid too much attention to detail each open home, wanting / needing prospective buyers to relieve me of my financial burden? Have I lodged too many ‘requirements’ for the sale – right price, right people, right timing (NOW!), right new home to move into.
Last night, a beautiful insight came to me. All Is Well. Relax into the Love of Source Energy. You will recognise ‘right’ as it unfolds. Just as Life declares itself, so does Love, and my Path is unfolding before me.
Can I step out confidently, powered by Love, to greet each moment as it unfolds? For me, that is the only path that leads out of the Chaos of Creation.
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